list of movies December 3, 2011
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| okay its been about a month- updating my list with red for most recent- 1/2/12 I’ve added an extended list of Oscars to include some more I guess that were nominated and not just for best picture. i’m adding at the bottom a list of movies not on the list, that I’ve enjoyed recently.
i’ve been renting alot of movies from the library to relax, or do mindless work along with. figured i’d see how many “good ones” i’ve seen. ones ive seen are crossed off. tonight i just watched the aviator and it was like 3 freaking hours long. whats with leonardo dicaprio and making epically long films? i only did 1990′s on because, heck, i don’t watch old movies. now the real help would be for someone to tell me which of these i haven’t seen yet are based on true stories or are period pieces/historical fiction, or are about black American struggle. those are my favorites. |
recent movies I’ve enjoyed
The Secret Life of Bees
a dream i had November 6, 2011
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so i had a dream i was at the beach with my family and friends or something, and we went shopping, and at this surf shop i stole a bunch of stuff, like hats and jewelry or something. i was pretty happy with myself even though i knew it was wrong, and when i was back at home i wrote down all the things i stole on a pink sticky note. the total added up to $527. I was like wow! Then i put the paper somewhere. Then the scene switched and we were in a living room and “everyone” was there. Someone was rearranging some furniture to make room, and because they moved the table, my papers and that sticky note were in clear view. as in most dreams, i didn’t have enough time to react, realize what was happening, and go snatch it up, before someone saw what it said. i guess the person who saw was also at the beach shopping, and also on staff with InterVarsity, because they read the sticky note, realized all the nice new stuff i had was stolen. They were so shocked that I had done such a thing and i knew because it was an intervarsity staff, that i would get fired for the shame of my act. i contemplated giving it back, didn’t want to do that, and i also knew that no matter of apologizing would fix the situation. so then i started to get all sad, mad at myself for falling into a stupid temptation that had bigger consequences than i had thought because i was more concerned about what i would do with the rest of my life because i loved intervarsity so much.
and then somewhere in that agony the dream stopped or i woke up.
just thought i’d document that one since it seemed rather significant and also strange.
October 19, 2011
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tell ya what, i’m scared. and i’ve felt so needy, its embarrassing. needy for people.
i feel like such a failure. wow. that hardly ever crosses my mind, not in a”i’m better than that” way, but sort of. when people say i feel like a failure, i’ll think, how can they think that? i hardly experience feelings like that. i either excuse it away to something or think it was a good job. but right now i feel like an embarrassing failure who is wallowing around and making a miserable example of how to be a missionary to the college campus.
so much of me is WRONG. like, perpetual sin that is so visible. right now i feel like i’m half the person i want to be. i’m no where near close. sometimes i consider that a good thing, because the most Godly people are often the most grieved over sin, but i’m just a general wreck.
i’ve looked so much sin in the face in the past few months, i’ve felt more broken and more messed up than ever before in my Christian walk. And the thing is i’m not doing anything bad thats new or different. its the same stuff i’ve always done. and now i’m seeing just how terrible it is, and what a miserable wretch i am.
Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner.
there is victory in Jesus, and the hope that i cling to is that the way has been made for me, by grace through faith, and not by works. because man oh man i’m going down swinging. and i’m hopeful in the sanctification, that one day i will be complete, and that one day i will be able to love Jesus with my whole heart and one day i won’t be mean to people, and one day i’ll be filled up.
lord lift the guilt and shame i’m feeling, remove it, heal it, whatever. i’ve been more vulnerable than ever before and its shaking me.
i bet none of this makes sense. and thats fine, its probably better to keep it that way.
onething needs more than one thing September 25, 2011
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ok, so if you read this, what is it describing?
The End Time Bride must be active in local and world missions to the degree that the mission gives glory to God with acts of mercy and service in the name of Jesus. Establishing a legitimate partnership we endeavor to support missionaries through finances, activity and deliberate intercession. We also desire to send laborers into the harvest field with a forerunner spirit carrying the reality of the author of the Great Commission. We will develop the cry of our hearts to be, “Here am I, Lord, send me.
hahaha. here we go.
Yesterday I attended the Onething conference in Ocean Grove. I went hoping to meet with God, hear a good teaching, hear from God, and worship. Now here’s the thing, I didn’t go to prove anything or to look for the negative. Why would I pay money and drive there for that? So, I start with the preface that I was there because I wanted to be there.
This was my experience: ridiculously long announcements about a book. A passionate “sermon” in which we didnt’ open the Bible until the last 5 minutes of the teaching. (Oh, and it was to Acts 2, and the Joel prophecy quote. You can’t just quote that all the time!) I don’t have a problem with a teaching that doesn’t open the bible, sometimes you just need to sit and listen to stories and experiences and ideas, but I didn’t really understand the teaching- the correlation between judgment of nations and revival. Why is that something that should be important to all people?
The second sermon was by a different guy who said the same thing over and over. he kept using the same words and never really said anything. You know how some people are bad at preaching but God uses them anyway? or the message is even more powerful that way? Uh, this would be the opposite.
Here’s the main thing: There is an “spirit of” superiority, it feels puffed-up and arrogant, it feels proud. None of these words quite describe it. It feels showy. It feels like if you are not totally obsessed and in love with jesus in the same ways they are, that you are wrong. Each annoucement and comment and teaching was FILLED with superfluous vocabulary, everything was a hyperbole. When you explain each thing you say as being the “greatest” and “most important” and smothered in dramatic extremes, it loses its meaning and effectiveness. The way they talked about a book plug was the same way they talked about a live webcam, the same way they talked about a cd, the way they talked about following Jesus or about Christianity. It all just becomes meaningless babbling. “And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words.”- Matt 6:7
babbling words and strange vocabulary that don’t describe things better but more exclusively and over-spiritually:
spirit of revelation, spirit of cooperation, in this hour, trevail, awakening, hour of, shaking, visitation, marked, move of God, end of the age, the nations, ‘revelation of ___’, the ‘spirit of ___’, ‘heart of ___’ , forerunner spirit, end-time church, manifested.
I get this weird feeling whenever I’m at IHOP stuff, as if my discernment radar is flashing warning warning! Sometimes its very hard to describe.
Its frustrating. I want to pursue God. I want to hear his voice, experience more of God, follow wherever he goes. I want to see people healed and more of heaven downloaded to earth. I want my ministry to be filled with power and allow God to do more amazing things among us. I don’t hear it at my church and i don’t hear it much in my ministry. And so I go to these things because they seem to be the only people talking about it. But its so unbalanced and just “off” that I can’t just appreciate the parts I like. I know that no church or organization is going to be good at everything. Every church has its strengths and its weaknesses. But this is not a church and its not a denomination, and yet it is. If it were balanced and its people were balanced, and doing what they say they stand for, then ihop-people would be involved in the local church, doing and serving in other ways. I just see an obsession with ‘ihop’ and not really with jesus. an obsession with gifts and experience and feelings.
If in order to talk about compassion, you call it the spirit of compassion, and you have a compassion-heart, and you walk in a compassion spirit, and your spirit is filled with compassion, perhaps you are over-spiritual.
Energy August 27, 2011
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Erwin McManus- Self-Mastery- Energy
its totally not what I thought it was going to be. Galatians 5 chyaah. spiritual yummies.
http://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/self-mastery-energy/id74403741?i=96525017
Movements August 23, 2011
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Movements- Rend Collective Experiment- totally my anthem today
I wanna soar with You
Upon wings like eagles
But I’ll crawl with You too
When the dark and lonely questions come
I wanna stand true
No matter what’s new or comes through
I can’t stand still
Whatever hits I’ll keep making movements to You
I’m running fast and free to You
‘Cos You are the movement and fight in me
I’m running fast and free to You
‘Cos You are my home where I wanna be
Come move in me
Where I wanna be, come move in me
I wanna float with you
The currents driving me
But I’ll paddle hard too
When the waves and rapids overcome
I wanna stand firm
When my mind’s weak and my emotions squirm
I must stand true
Whatever hits I’ll keep making movements to You
I won’t walk away, won’t walk away
i need a post-talk talk. August 19, 2011
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July 31, 2011
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D & R Canal Path, 7/31, BIKED, loop from titusville-lambertville-newhope-washington crossing- 16 miles
hiking/biking log: summer 2011
Panther Mountain, ADK, New York 5/15, down in the pouring rain, .8m to peak, x 2 = 1.6miles
Ampersand Mountain ADK, New York 5/31, hiked 1/2 hour in wrong direction [and back] (2.7 m to peak, didn’t make it to the top) 1 + 2 x 2= 5miles
baldpate mountain, Hopewell, NJ 6/7: summit trail 1.3 x 2= 2.6miles
Musconetcong Gorge Preserve, Hunterdon County, NJ 6/15: waterfall trail >highlands/ridge trail = 1.23miles
Manasquan Reservoir, Monmouth County, NJ 6/20: BIKE 5.5m perimeter circuit x 3 = 16.5miles
Sourland Mountain Preserve, Hillsborough, NJ 6/26: (part of) ridge trail = 2miles– climbed some boulders!
Manasquan Reservoir, Monmouth County, NJ 6/27: BIKE 5.5m perimeter circuit x 3 = 16.5miles (again)
Heritage Preserve: Reed Road, Hopewell, NJ 6/28 1.5 mile loop
D & R Canal Path, from Grant St (Titusville) to Lambertville, across the bridge (walk), and back, 6/30 BIKE 6.5 x 2 +.5 x 2 = 15 miles
Bull’s Island, Stockton, NJ 7/1 one trail: foot bridge + ~ 1 miles
Wickecheoke Creek Preserve, Stockton, NJ 7/1, exploring on the rocks= .25 miles
Wickecheoke Creek Reserve 7/4, spent most time looking for trailhead, only about 15 minutes of walking 
Ted Stiles Preserve @ Baldpate Mountain 7/6, Copper Hill Trail, (got lost, practically doubled mileage, Honey Hollow and Creek Spur) = ~4 miles
Mount Tammany, DWG 7/9, steep, rocky, hot! 1.5 up, 2.5 down, =4 miles
Pole Farm, Lawrenceville, NJ 7/8 BIKE = 4 miles
Greater Mountain Lakes Open Space Area, Princeton, NJ 7/13, walked bike on hiking trail, hiking/biking ~3 miles
Canal Path Kingston Lock, NJ, 7/12 BIKE 3.8miles
Acadia Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/18, elevation 680′ 2.5 mile
Beehive Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/19, elevation 520′ Iron rungs on ledges Woods to exposed cliffs, 0.8 miles
to Bowl Trail- 0.7 miles
Cadillac Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/20, elevation 1530′, (drove to summit) 
0.0 miles
Ricketts Glen State Park, Luzerne,PA 7/26 elevation 2,198′ saw 13 waterfalls, loop is part of Falls Trail, steep/slippery stone steps- 3.2 miles
Pennington Loop Nature Trail, Pennington NJ 7/27: BIKE through forest with roots/rocks ~1.5 miles
Stony Brook-Mills Mount Rose Trails (Ridge Trail), Pennington, 7/30- 2.1 miles
it was pretty boring and not rewarding July 30, 2011
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Stony Brook-Mills Mount Rose Trails (Ridge Trail), Pennington, 7/30- 2.1 miles
hiking/biking log: summer 2011
Panther Mountain, ADK, New York 5/15, down in the pouring rain, .8m to peak, x 2 = 1.6miles
Ampersand Mountain ADK, New York 5/31, hiked 1/2 hour in wrong direction [and back] (2.7 m to peak, didn’t make it to the top) 1 + 2 x 2= 5miles
baldpate mountain, Hopewell, NJ 6/7: summit trail 1.3 x 2= 2.6miles
Musconetcong Gorge Preserve, Hunterdon County, NJ 6/15: waterfall trail >highlands/ridge trail = 1.23miles
Manasquan Reservoir, Monmouth County, NJ 6/20: BIKE 5.5m perimeter circuit x 3 = 16.5miles
Sourland Mountain Preserve, Hillsborough, NJ 6/26: (part of) ridge trail = 2miles– climbed some boulders!
Manasquan Reservoir, Monmouth County, NJ 6/27: BIKE 5.5m perimeter circuit x 3 = 16.5miles (again)
Heritage Preserve: Reed Road, Hopewell, NJ 6/28 1.5 mile loop
D & R Canal Path, from Grant St (Titusville) to Lambertville, across the bridge (walk), and back, 6/30 BIKE 6.5 x 2 +.5 x 2 = 15 miles
Bull’s Island, Stockton, NJ 7/1 one trail: foot bridge + ~ 1 miles
Wickecheoke Creek Preserve, Stockton, NJ 7/1, exploring on the rocks= .25 miles
Wickecheoke Creek Reserve 7/4, spent most time looking for trailhead, only about 15 minutes of walking
Ted Stiles Preserve @ Baldpate Mountain 7/6, Copper Hill Trail, (got lost, practically doubled mileage, Honey Hollow and Creek Spur) = ~4 miles
Mount Tammany, DWG 7/9, steep, rocky, hot! 1.5 up, 2.5 down, =4 miles
Pole Farm, Lawrenceville, NJ 7/8 BIKE = 4 miles
Greater Mountain Lakes Open Space Area, Princeton, NJ 7/13, walked bike on hiking trail, hiking/biking ~3 miles
Canal Path Kingston Lock, NJ, 7/12 BIKE 3.8miles
Acadia Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/18, elevation 680′ 2.5 mile
Beehive Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/19, elevation 520′ Iron rungs on ledges Woods to exposed cliffs, 0.8 miles
to Bowl Trail- 0.7 miles
Cadillac Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/20, elevation 1530′, (drove to summit) 
0.0 miles
Ricketts Glen State Park, Luzerne,PA 7/26 elevation 2,198′ saw 13 waterfalls, loop is part of Falls Trail, steep/slippery stone steps- 3.2 miles
Pennington Loop Nature Trail, Pennington NJ 7/27: BIKE through forest with roots/rocks ~1.5 miles
Acadia, Maine & Ricketts Glen, PA July 27, 2011
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have alot to update!
Acadia Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/18, elevation 680′ 2.5 mile
Beehive Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/19, elevation 520′ Iron rungs on ledges Woods to exposed cliffs, 0.8 miles
to Bowl Trail- 0.7 miles
Cadillac Mountain, Acadia, ME 7/20, elevation 1530′, (drove to summit) 0.0 miles
Ricketts Glen State Park, Luzerne,PA 7/26 elevation 2,198′ saw 13 waterfalls, loop is part of Falls Trail, steep/slippery stone steps- 3.2 miles
Pennington Loop Nature Trail, Pennington NJ 7/27: BIKE through forest with roots/rocks ~1.5 miles
hiking/biking log: summer 2011
Panther Mountain, ADK, New York 5/15, down in the pouring rain, .8m to peak, x 2 = 1.6miles
Ampersand Mountain ADK, New York 5/31, hiked 1/2 hour in wrong direction [and back] (2.7 m to peak, didn’t make it to the top) 1 + 2 x 2= 5miles
baldpate mountain, Hopewell, NJ 6/7: summit trail 1.3 x 2= 2.6miles
Musconetcong Gorge Preserve, Hunterdon County, NJ 6/15: waterfall trail >highlands/ridge trail = 1.23miles
Manasquan Reservoir, Monmouth County, NJ 6/20: BIKE 5.5m perimeter circuit x 3 = 16.5miles
Sourland Mountain Preserve, Hillsborough, NJ 6/26: (part of) ridge trail = 2miles– climbed some boulders!
Manasquan Reservoir, Monmouth County, NJ 6/27: BIKE 5.5m perimeter circuit x 3 = 16.5miles (again)
Heritage Preserve: Reed Road, Hopewell, NJ 6/28 1.5 mile loop
D & R Canal Path, from Grant St (Titusville) to Lambertville, across the bridge (walk), and back, 6/30 BIKE 6.5 x 2 +.5 x 2 = 15 miles
Bull’s Island, Stockton, NJ 7/1 one trail: foot bridge + ~ 1 miles
Wickecheoke Creek Preserve, Stockton, NJ 7/1, exploring on the rocks= .25 miles
Wickecheoke Creek Reserve 7/4, spent most time looking for trailhead, only about 15 minutes of walking
Ted Stiles Preserve @ Baldpate Mountain 7/6, Copper Hill Trail, (got lost, practically doubled mileage, Honey Hollow and Creek Spur) = ~4 miles
Mount Tammany, DWG 7/9, steep, rocky, hot! 1.5 up, 2.5 down, =4 miles
Pole Farm, Lawrenceville, NJ 7/8 BIKE = 4 miles
Greater Mountain Lakes Open Space Area, Princeton, NJ 7/13, walked bike on hiking trail, hiking/biking ~3 miles
Canal Path Kingston Lock, NJ, 7/12 BIKE 3.8miles
