wowzas! November 11, 2009
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how amazing. what a great large group, people sharing their testimonies of what God has done in their lives.
here are a FEW of the many things people wrote down about how God has changed them in the last year. so cool!
the vision: students and faculty transformed, campuses renewed, world changers developed.
students and faculty being transformed! check!
God gave me this new heart- one that is filled with his love.
Bigger dreams that include Him.
It wasn’t until this past year that I have felt Him impact my life.
God has healed my back.
God has brought me to intervarsity! 
He has taught me not to judge people. He has shown me that I have leadership qualities.
God has helped me manage anger and stress more.
In the last year God has showed me the standards to which I need to have for a romantic relationship.
Delivered me out of depression.
God has taught me that he values obedience as much as zeal.
He showed me that I was looking for happiness in all the wrong places.
He has really inspired me to break out of my comfort zone and do things that I had never done before.
adventures of the week November 6, 2009
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this week has been terrific!
monday: just worked, hillary visited!
tuesday: interview in somerset! then work
wednesday: new york city with IV people! large group @ Rider
thursday: work, mentoring, large group @ TCNJ, applebees!
friday: nicey/mdon lunch! freelance, work
a full, adventurous, totally NOT boring week! also in there, I am sick. bleh! feeling perdy crappy, but doing everything anyway, haha.
let the journey continue! November 2, 2009
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so, I made a decision earlier this weekend. and something dawned on me this morning. i really do have a peace about my decision. why? welp, i thought about how there is an example in the Bible where a dad has a miracle baby. (its a miracle because they had tried and tried, and the couple were now too old) So as the son is growing, God promises the Dad that he would have tons of descendants. Then, God throws him for a loop and asks him to sacrifice his son’s life! Talk about confusion here; the God who promised that he’d have a long lineage, is going to end the life of the only son? What’s that all about God? But he was obedient, and took his son up to a moutain. As he was about to sacrifice his son, God stops him. Phew! But why, again? Because God just wanted the dad to trust him. His promise was still valid, but he wanted the dad to be obedient and trust him.
And so in our lives, God may call us to give something up, or to be open to an option that tends to not make any sense. Or do something that we don’t want to do. But just because he asks us to be willing to sacrifice, give up, or ignore our logic, doesn’t actually mean he wants it to happen. He just wants our hearts to be willing. How will we know if we are truly willing unless the decisions come up?
This is how I am feeling right now. I was willing to do either of the options. I was willing to do something I didn’t really want to do, for however long I needed to do it. But just because I was willing didn’t mean it was what I actually had to do. In fact, I think because I was willing to pick the one choice, showed that I was ready for the other choice.
Let the journey continue!
wow, no more, ever. October 15, 2009
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ritas gelati
and so, I handed in my keys, for the very last time, at Rita’s. The weather this week has been so cold and yucky, boss just decided to close on a thursday and not wait the whole weekend. so, i have OFF friday all day, just working 7-11 at starbucks. woot! i have to figure out what i’m going to do with myself.
anyway, i would just like to document this time, and the fact that MAN, i must really be growing up. because i’m never going back to rita’s (at least to work) ever, ever again. wow. i’ll miss ya Rita’s, I really will. You were my favorite job. 6 years! I’m looking forward to the tip money this year, hoping its a nice chunk of change. I usually donate most of it, because it feels like a “christmas bonus” or something. and idk, it feels good at least once a year to do something nice with my money. depending on how much it is will determine who gets what, but i’ve got quite a few friends who are missionaries/campus ministry staff and some people going on missions. there is plenty to give to. We shall see how the Lawd has me use it.(there is a slight twinge of wanting a new digital camera instead. thats so terrible! especially when I’m going to have loans on me pretty soon. but man, a nice canon or nikon, its just calling my name..)
I pray my new job gives me just as much satisfaction, and is just as fun, in new and different ways, as Rita’s. By next week, I will be an official barista.
wow, no more Rita’s. wow.
got no way of knowing October 11, 2009
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randomly listened to an ashley parker angel song today. and the lyrics are super lame. he’s really terrible i don’t know why i liked him. i guess i was just obsessed with Otown back in the day. but anyway, this song can be my new anthem.
Got no way of knowing exactly where I’m going,
But I feel so alive.
Everything is changing, life is rearranging,
But I feel so alive
listen to the song here:
Today was incredibly overwhelming. October 10, 2009
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Today was incredibly overwhelming.
i cried a couple times. you know thats bad then, huh. they just threw me on the register. and well, i hate messing up, i hate being wrong, i hate feeling stupid, i hate letting customers down, and doing things wrong, and being flustered. i mean, i can take it for a little while. but like THE WHOLE DAY! i was really about to cry AT the register but that would have been a little ridiculous. i’m a tough cookie, i’m sure other people would have just given up. i was pretty close to it. i don’t think it was a very smart way of training me. but whatever. maybe i just need to study more.
it really put me in a bad mood. and i think they could tell. i guess i started to feel a little “abused”. i mean, i know i’m new, so i know that i’m going to be the one to clean, and sweep and take out garbage. i know that. but somehow after the overwhelming stuff, i didn’t want to be helpful anymore. i’ll get over it.
i’m thinking i might want to start seeing a counselor or something. i can’t expect my friends to listen to me all the time. plus i feel like i don’t see/talk to anyone on a regular enough basis, where its not boat-loads of catching up and explaining things. its just too much. i hate the fact that i’m surrounded by amazing people who care about me, and i still feel so alone. i dont understand why i feel that way. i have so many decisions and things going on in my life, and i can’t seem to find a good way to deal with it. i mean, i haven’t been dealing with it in a bad way, just no way at all.
Jesus, i need you so much right now. i need you to help me see things through a lens of gratefulness, of blessings, and contentment. I need to feel your presence and your direction. I need your strong hand to uphold me. Will you remove the confusion? Will you end the waiting? I don’t want the situations to change, I want my attitude about them to change. well, actually i want the situations to change too, but i know that’s not the best way to pray.
heck, i’ve been stressed out about finding a good time to bring my car in to the shop for an oil change. maybe this week is just, a good test for me.
and i don’t even get my sunday off. i just really need ONE day to just recoup. i guess i had opporunities to rest during the week, but chose to fill them up, with things and people, because it helps me not think. but then it all snowballs and i become a wreck. who knows. i don’t know how to pace myself, to handle myself. i need help.
this is what growing up is.
this week October 1, 2009
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this was a fun week.
the closer i get to my freedom being removed (a job) the more fun i seem to be having.
monday: work, ride bike to hamilton library, ride back in the monsoon, completely soaked (ridiculous!) hang out at TCNJ library with deb and drew
tuesday: first day of training at starbucks, photo gallery with mom, buying clothes, dinner, evangelism, small group. evang was awesome that night, got to have some great convos and even bring a girl to large group!
wednesday: work, best buy, met hillary for dinner at panera, large group at Rider.
thursday: meeting with cathy, did some work/quiet time. read in the stud, dinner with nystrom, brought frosh to large group, central design meeting, back to large group, applebees.
friday: work, first friday with art kids in philly.
thursday was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. so when meeting with cathy, we briefly talked about the funeral designer job, and how i hope i never hear from them cause i probably wouldn’t take the job anyway. well, what do you know he calls during our meeting. i let it go to voice mail. he just says “call me”. oooyyy.
cathy mentions a plan for IV staff that would need me fully $’d by JUNE. hmmm.
i check my email, i get a call for a second interview at the theater! this is mucho exciting!
so here are the crazy thoughts going on in my head for about an hour straight just sitting there:
am i crazy for turning down this funeral job? i mean, i’m desperate, and in this economy.. do i say yes?
i mean, what if i say no, hoping i get the theater job, but dont actually get that?
i’d rather work at starbucks (which i just started) part time than work for the funeral peeps full time…
if i get the job at the theater i’ll have to quit starbucks, which was i kinda excited about! there would be alot of connections there.
if i get this job at the theater, i’d start and then quit again by june? that’d be kinda beat.
june is only 6 months to fund raise, from when i hand in my app, that seems like kinda crazy! maybe its more important to have a part time job instead?
well maybe the funeral people will just tell me they picked someone else. but what do i say if they offer me a job?
uggghhh too many decisions!
and so then, i finally just called the funeral people. he wanted me to work saturdays, for 12/hr until the “busy season” (for dead people?!) around november then go full time. [starbucks just hired me knowing i'd commit to saturdays] so that was a definite NO in my book. i told him i needed to think about it and get back to him next week. but i’m very grateful the offer was something i COULD refuse, haha.
so, now its on to the playhouse and starbucks and sorting out life and how that might work. oh ALSO, i got assigned to my mentee today, so i have to figure out when i’ll meet with her regularly, which seems impossible when my schedule/life seems all so up in the air.
and, this coming week i am working 44 hours between ritas and starbucks. oy. i mean, thats great because i could definitely use the money. but idk, i dont want to work 40+ hour weeks unless i’m in a real job with benefits and all.
my monday September 28, 2009
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today:
woke up and wrote out a thank you card, typed something into a excel spreadsheet, deleted a whole section and couldn’t get it back 
grabbed a mini muffin and drove to work. stopped at wawa right by ritas first and got a tuna shorti. yum! it was at that point that i realized i left my keys for work at home.
drove back home, got said keys. came to work.
worked.
ate that hoagie (YES!)
deposited a check
packed up, rode bike to library
on the way home from library, got poured on in a ridiculous monsoon. the rain actually hurt it was coming down so hard, plus the trying to move forward at a fast pace to be less rained-on. however, that didn’t do much except make it extremely hard to see! i had to keep wiping my face every two seconds haha. and plus there was tons of traffic so i had to wait at lights for a while. as nuts as it was, it was kinda fun. i was really, really wet when i got home. my dad was in his car trying to wait it out to GET IN THE HOUSE after work. haha. and here i was drenched from riding in it for 10 minutes.
shower
read a book
dinner
tcnj library with deb and drew
thats all friends!
can’t wait for this drive September 26, 2009
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Subaru SVX
so i have reconciled my sports-car renting dilemma.
how did i forget that my BROTHER has a sports car? haha, so i'm totally borrowing his Subaru SVX. YES!
i will take it to this road: in 34 days!
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what a week September 24, 2009
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well, today i worked 9-5, then 6-9. i can’t really keep my eyes open.
all this week have had to get up pretty early. yesterday i had an interview at the Paper Mill Playhouse.
it seems like a really really perfect job for me. luckily, the person interviewing me was nice. i had gotten lost, and she rescheduled me for 2pm. so i spent pretty much an entire day in north jersey, then rushed home to get to rita’s.
tomorrow i’m working in the morning at rita’s, then i get to see mutemath at the TLA!! i’m really excited. meeting jess tack there, which should be terrific as usual!
saturday, working again at rita’s. then probably going to church at night.
sunday, church, (apple picking?) and a meeting at church.
i have to call starbucks back tomorrow, they got my resume and called me, a good sign!
i didn’t read my bible today. but i listened to a debate in the car about the resurrection. one guy saying, yes there is enough evidence to prove the resurrection really happened, and another guy no, there’s not and it didn’t really happen.
its very interesting. i’m still not finished with an hour + something part 1 of the debate, because the cd kept stopping, and so i’d start it over then i’d hold my finger on the fast forward button (since its an hour long thing, but only one track) and it would get almost there or halfway there and just turn off. oh my old ghetto cd player.
(i know, i should just use an itrip but mine is broken)
i really like listening to debates now. after reading tim keller’s book, i hopped on to the veritas forum, and listen to a debate and talk he posted up there, and i played it at ritas. it was just the right thing. it wasn’t a sermon, so people couldn’t get weirded out. it was a two sided thing, so a listener does not feel pushed, but can remain a bystander and listener. like, the girl i was working with said, “hmm! i would have never thought of any of this stuff, its pretty cool!” and so christianity and the existence of God snuck in there, in a “cool” way.
its making feel pretty smart to listen to these things, like biblical validity, and the resurrection, and the existence of God, and alot of piper sermons lately. i have been finding it easier to tackle some topics in conversation with people. i can’t wait to take the rider kids out to do some surveys or evangelism soon. i’m itching!!
my car’s been acting up too, but i think thats because i’ve been running it pretty hard lately, with all the interviewing and freelancing. yesterday it was really scaring me when i was making turns it would get all lurchy and weird.
