this was a fun week.
the closer i get to my freedom being removed (a job) the more fun i seem to be having.

monday: work, ride bike to hamilton library, ride back in the monsoon, completely soaked (ridiculous!) hang out at TCNJ library with deb and drew

tuesday: first day of training at starbucks, photo gallery with mom, buying clothes, dinner, evangelism, small group. evang was awesome that night, got to have some great convos and even bring a girl to large group!

wednesday: work, best buy, met hillary for dinner at panera, large group at Rider.

thursday: meeting with cathy, did some work/quiet time. read in the stud, dinner with nystrom, brought frosh to large group, central design meeting, back to large group, applebees.

friday: work, first friday with art kids in philly.

thursday was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. so when meeting with cathy, we briefly talked about the funeral designer job, and how i hope i never hear from them cause i probably wouldn’t take the job anyway. well, what do you know he calls during our meeting. i let it go to voice mail. he just says “call me”. oooyyy.
cathy mentions a plan for IV staff that would need me fully $’d by JUNE. hmmm.
i check my email, i get a call for a second interview at the theater! this is mucho exciting!

so here are the crazy thoughts going on in my head for about an hour straight just sitting there:

am i crazy for turning down this funeral job? i mean, i’m desperate, and in this economy.. do i say yes?
i mean, what if i say no, hoping i get the theater job, but dont actually get that?
i’d rather work at starbucks (which i just started) part time than work for the funeral peeps full time…
if i get the job at the theater i’ll have to quit starbucks, which was i kinda excited about! there would be alot of connections there.
if i get this job at the theater, i’d start and then quit again by june? that’d be kinda beat.
june is only 6 months to fund raise, from when i hand in my app, that seems like kinda crazy! maybe its more important to have a part time job instead?
well maybe the funeral people will just tell me they picked someone else. but what do i say if they offer me a job?
uggghhh too many decisions!

and so then, i finally just called the funeral people. he wanted me to work saturdays, for 12/hr until the “busy season” (for dead people?!) around november then go full time. [starbucks just hired me knowing i'd commit to saturdays] so that was a definite NO in my book. i told him i needed to think about it and get back to him next week. but i’m very grateful the offer was something i COULD refuse, haha.

so, now its on to the playhouse and starbucks and sorting out life and how that might work. oh ALSO, i got assigned to my mentee today, so i have to figure out when i’ll meet with her regularly, which seems impossible when my schedule/life seems all so up in the air.
and, this coming week i am working 44 hours between ritas and starbucks. oy. i mean, thats great because i could definitely use the money. but idk, i dont want to work 40+ hour weeks unless i’m in a real job with benefits and all.