yesterday March 18, 2009
Posted by highofseventyfive in documenting life.Tags: God, myers briggs, paul washer, prayer, spring
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Yesterday, God was so good to me! One of two things could have happened. either, God blessed me with run-ins with friends, OR stuff like that is always there, but He has opened my eyes to appreciating them.
so yesterday i met up with nystrom in the a.m. which is always good. i love talking with her. then i went to class. after class i did some work in the lab for a while, and started to feel a little lonely. so i walked to the library to see who was there, but no one was there! sometimes when that happens i feel a little defeated. so then i went outside, and wasn’t sure what to do with myself because i had to go do my project with steff in a little bit. so i just sat on the bench outside just sitting there, kind of awkwardly. then mike skomba and BRYAN! showed up and sat down near me! that was great, it was so nice to see bryan. we watched some look around you videos and laughed. that was just so perfect. then i went to steff’s, and we got dinner in the stud, which was awesome because i didn’t have any money left but she has too many points, so she paid for me!
class went til 9. but bryan called me, and we went to parkside diner and hung out some more. that was great! and we went to 10 pm prayer.
after prayer, i was thinking, hmm maybe i’ll go sit in the library, kind of aimless again. but i ran into melissa chiu on her way back to new res and we talked for a long while and that was just lovely!
and so as i walked back to my car last night, i praised and thanked God for that day, full of people! i feel like so often, since we took the myers briggs, we keep talking about ourselves in these categories, and almost making it the reasons why we act certain ways. and i think more and more about the E. if i’m an extrovert, i want to be around people. well, how to i reconcile this with the fact that there are tons of times, especially in ministry, where i’m going to be ALONE. like paul washer said in a sermon, “would you be okay being ALONE WITH GOD while all your friends are off skiiing?” and i think, if i am called to do this IV staff thing, that i have to start being okay with being by myself sometimes. and yet, i saw how much yesterday was GREAT to just see people and talk a little. so great.
today, 8am prayer, breakfast with paul and melissa, then off to work. left work a little early to plan for GIG but no one replied. i drove around for a 1/2 hour in the beautiful weather. i couldn’t find anyone to go with, so i just went by myself. i tried to convince myself that it was nicer that way. haha. oh well! then i came on campus to do work and sat outside for a few minutes but it was kind of breezy and a little bit chilly. now i’m in the library but by myself and starting to think about it again. i don’t know why this is such an issue with me.
well! that’s it. just wanted to capture yesterday, so thankful for it!!
ESTJ. yep. March 12, 2009
Posted by highofseventyfive in just thoughts.Tags: ESTJ, myers briggs, personality
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As an ESTJ, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion.
ESTJs live in a world of facts and concrete needs. They live in the present, with their eye constantly scanning their personal environment to make sure that everything is running smoothly and systematically. They honor traditions and laws, and have a clear set of standards and beliefs. They expect the same of others, and have no patience or understanding of individuals who do not value these systems. They value competence and efficiency, and like to see quick results for their efforts.
ESTJs are take-charge people. They have such a clear vision of the way that things should be, that they naturally step into leadership roles. They are self-confident and aggressive. They are extremely talented at devising systems and plans for action, and at being able to see what steps need to be taken to complete a specific task. They can sometimes be very demanding and critical, because they have such strongly held beliefs, and are likely to express themselves without reserve if they feel someone isn’t meeting their standards. But at least their expressions can be taken at face-value, because the ESTJ is extremely straight-forward and honest.
The ESTJ is usually a model citizen, and pillar of the community. He or she takes their commitments seriously, and follows their own standards of “good citizenship” to the letter. ESTJ enjoys interacting with people, and likes to have fun. ESTJs can be very boisterous and fun at social events, especially activities which are focused on the family, community, or work.
The ESTJ needs to watch out for the tendency to be too rigid, and to become overly detail-oriented. Since they put a lot of weight in their own beliefs, it’s important that they remember to value other people’s input and opinions. If they neglect their Feeling side, they may have a problem with fulfilling other’s needs for intimacy, and may unknowingly hurt people’s feelings by applying logic and reason to situations which demand more emotional sensitivity.
When bogged down by stress, an ESTJ often feels isolated from others. They feel as if they are misunderstood and undervalued, and that their efforts are taken for granted. Although normally the ESTJ is very verbal and doesn’t have any problem expressing themself, when under stress they have a hard time putting their feelings into words and communicating them to others.
ESTJs value security and social order above all else, and feel obligated to do all that they can to enhance and promote these goals. They will mow the lawn, vote, join the PTA, attend home owners association meetings, and generally do anything that they can to promote personal and social security.
The ESTJ puts forth a lot of effort in almost everything that they do. They will do everything that they think should be done in their job, marriage, and community with a good amount of energy. He or she is conscientious, practical, realistic, and dependable. While the ESTJ will dutifully do everything that is important to work towards a particular cause or goal, they might not naturally see or value the importance of goals which are outside of their practical scope. However, if the ESTJ is able to see the relevance of such goals to practical concerns, you can bet that they’ll put every effort into understanding them and incorporating them into their quest for clarity and security.
Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Extraverted Thinking
Auxiliary: Introverted Sensing
Tertiary: Extraverted Intuition
Inferior: Introverted Feeling
ESTJs are very enthusiastic people who are driven to fulfill their obligations and duties, especially those towards their families. Their priorities generally put God first, family second, and friends third. They put forth a tremendous amount of effort to meet their obligations and duties, according to their priorities. They are dedicated and committed to their relationships, which they consider to be lifelong and unalterable. They like to be in charge, and may be very controlling of their mates and children. They have high esteem for traditions and institutions, and expect that their mates and children will support these as well. They have little patience and need for dealing with people who see things very differently from the ESTJ.
ESTJ Weaknesses:
* Tendency to believe that they are always right
* Tendency to need to always be in charge
* Impatient with inefficiency and sloppiness
* Not naturally in tune with what others are feeling
* Not naturally good at expressing their feelings and emotions
* May inadvertantly hurt others with insensitive language
* Tendency to be materialistic and status-conscious
* Generally uncomfortable with change, and moving into new territories



